I'm blessed

Shifting to http://10mdeeper.tumblr.com/

after debating with myself for a lonnnngggg time. toodles!

weiyan says:
u r not one tat so easily give up righttt

sometimes feels so frustrated and tired that you feel like throwing everything down on the floor and go, "God, i give up. seriously."
the joy of serving, i need to remember that.

i'm doing for God, no longer for myself. i'm so worn out man.

:(

i wished i can be like a carefree child, running around the playground without a care in this complicated world.
the troubles, the worries, the regrets.

HEY AMATHS, i do not believe that you're that hard. I have God, while He's mighty, the strongest, the most holy, the best!
so be my friend, amaths! let me know more about you kay!

"even if you are the only sinner in the world, God will still come down to die for YOU on the cross!"

oh how many times have I broken Your heart. Still you forgive, If only I ask.
-Hillsong united, All for Love.

gosh, God, why do you love me so much when i'm so undeserving.
I sin,
I lie,
I gossip,
I badmouth,
I envy,
I get angry,
I get jealous,
yet you still love me.

lead me to the cross.

that i should have a bath first

and i've got the feeling that,
I should start mugging.

someone please go to mac with me to mug.

AMATHS. shucks.

whoa. i slept for like 12 hours man!

i miss PD. no more PD training today, if not i would be off and gone to church already.

ushering tomorrow! (Y)

PD TEAM 2010 ROCKS MAN!

tomorrow.. i'm offically into the new NCO council, as a platoon commander.

hmm. not bad ah. i like.

anyway. whats more important. tomorrow's the day we've been waiting for SOOO long! PD team, do our best yeah? today was (Y)!!
i bet im gonna miss PD sessions after enrolment.

this battle.

is not easy. i know that this is a fight not physical, and a war that is not with this world.

squeezed into one white (Y) mercedes taxi today with Rhonda, Jiaying, Junn Yiow and Samuel.

super epic. we were like "WHOAAA." when we saw the taxi turned into the school and in front of us.
LOL. felt like some sardines as I was the one at side, being squeezed/clammed. Rhonda had a seat all by herself at the front, Junn yiow squeezed in yet had the most space as he continue to suan us with his, "SAY LAHHH. SAY LAHHH." or super sarcastic "DOO LAHHH."
we couldn't take his sarcasm, probably should have thrown him out of the taxi. LOL

Rhonda was like, "that was the noisiest taxi ride i've ever sat."

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA. (Y)

PLATOON COMMANDER.

thank God for that position yeah.

"oh happy day, happy day. you've washed my sins away. and i'll never be the same again."

i dont see the reason of "not enough time" when I see that there's exactly enough time. one hour's not enough? c'mon, you've got to be kidding. that's a lot of time.

*sighs*

no matter what i get, let's praise God.

whoo. even i get nothing, i will still clap for those who have been chosen. And know that God have a purpose for everything! (:
precision drills was (Y). super fun, hope this passion never ends.

yes, seperated from Kairos and into a new lifegroup filled with people I'm less related with. It's hard to communicate with faces i've never seen before

I almost cried when I see the rest of the Kairos waiting outside Cafe for their Young adults service. I will miss my discipler too! Peiru has been really good and nice to us since she took us.

to think how i took it for granted the times with Kairos, i suddenly miss every precious moments with them. I hope they are doing well now in every areas of their life, really doing life together and walk with God daily. (:
Kairos, I miss you people! :(

even usher yesterday was... at first really lonely, I had no one to talk to. Until Michelle came and really cheered me up. I didn't know who to talk to anyway. I just do whatever I had to do. But i also knew a few new people and faces... such as nicholas (i dont know his surname) and YiJie? Thank God there's still SiewSia, Cynthia inside the usher team! really nice people yeah (:

"it's not the end of the world, so why are you fretting like that?!"

true, works out the same for me yeah! monday is no bluezxzxz. i dont see how i'm shining the light if i fret like any other people. I know peace, when I know the Lord.

today morning a new cleaner came to our house to help us with the housechores.

the old cleaner's gone and now a new one's here. yet i dont like the way it is. I've got a bad feeling about the new cleaner, somehow. And it's a weird feeling how i wished she's not the new cleaner. Something about her makes me feels uncomfortable. Probably Dong doesnt even likes her and kept barking at her. I don't know what to do. I put on a stern face when i see her, it's ridiculous of me to do that. Yet I don't want to smile to her. whats wrong with me!

i woke up, thinking... "alamat. have to get up so early."

but after all, the trip to Jurong Bird Park was meaningful and worth it! Though we waited for about 2 hours long for the Christian Outreach to The Handicapped to come. But when they reached. You can see our eyes were all terrified. We didn't even know how to approach the people. I was tagged with this guy wearing a red shirt with a batman cartoon on the front of his shirt. He looked at me, and then looked away. I looked at his name tag and his name was "Beng Siah". So i just held onto his arm and walked with him.

I talked to him about the nice blue skies, and asked him if he liked it too.
and he was really nice, he just agreed with whatever i said. And when i went, "That red flower very nice right!" and he will reply, "Yes! very nice!"
while when i go, "See the orange flower! So big and nice!" and he will follow the way i said it by going, "Yeah! Orange and nice!"
hahahha, after the long day of walking and looking around for things to tell him. I sang ABC song with him, told him how to spell Penguin and Purple. He just followed me cheerfully.

I told him not to forget me when they got on to the bus and left. Now I miss him. He was like a friend to me. A nice friend (:

不管是明天还是今天, 太阳一样会从东边升起!

"youzxzx lookzxzx shozxzx weirdzxzxz izxn tehzxz pizxturezx."
(pardon me, i dont even know whats up with that.)

charging my nikon camera away now. can't wait for e2 reunion man!

:/ sudden change of things make me feel unprepared.

like zoom, and you go, " huh? what just happened?" and all plans have to be cancelled and then replanned again.
and no ideas seems to be able to pop out, everyday is so packed and filled with stuffs that it makes people feel that this is just not a holiday, seems more like just a few more hours of free time.. on doing your work.

learnt how to cherish moments. what a day.